hatred

he hates me nowadays...he dun seem to b understandin wat i want...all i hope he wud do is juz to sit n tink...den mayb he will understand.

i do everytin for him...i lose in everytin for him...i mean...im not showin off...but dats d fact...love me for who i m...dun make me change in ur own way...

wats there supposed to b in a relationship??? love.....many more...bt all he gives me is hatred.

i wish he tink n love me as he 1st did...n not scold me all d time...ramnath naidu forgive me if i did any mistakes...but d fact is u shud understand dat i love u a lot...i duno wat else to do for u....i can only cry...but soon i wont hav tears...den wat wil happen...im so afraid....

i really love u....pls understand me...plssssss

....

i juz got my 3rd sem results...

i feel so weird wit my resultsa...i cant really mention y..but all of a suden everytin was so weird for me..

i mean wat can i do..results are out...cant turn d clock rite???!!!

well, im tinkin of changn uni...but im in a confusion where to go....

either UTAR or UCSI...

UTAR is gud coz i hav friends there who will knw wats around tehre n plus they are my 1sem seniors...

UCSI on the other hand...is like extreamly far...

argh....shud i juz stay in unisel??

i cant make up my mind....its so ridiculous..!!!

argh!!!!!

i hav no 1 to talk to bout tiz...!!!! i wish i juz had sum1 to talk to...how pathetic can my life be!!!!

hmmm....life is challenging...

hmm...

wat m i gona say...

i juz love my life...at times its like crazily happy...

at times it sucks like hell...but well...

im learnin hw to acept it...

hmmm..

i juz tend not to acept wat hapenin around...

coz im juz a pampered child...

1 spoiled only child...who gets everytin dat i want...n wen i suddenly dun get wat i want...

i freak out n turn to a physco

creepy...

if i remain like tiz...den hw m i gona succeed in life...

argh...

sooo pathetic...

hehehe

well...now as days past im alone in hostel..

im learnin everytin frm d basics..

life outside witout my parents for a pampered child is erm...

i wud say though la..for me..

i knw there r pple worst den me...but well...diff pple diff rite...

hehehe....

i hav to get used to all tiz...

parts n parcels in life...:)

i juz love my life d way it is now...im learnin a lot of new stuffs...hehehe...

muaxxx...

wats wrong in spendin time wit d gal if she only ask u u out for a mean instead of u askin her out...??

today..

had a class... was waitin for class to end coz i was freakinly hungry till now...

ask my one n only dearest bf to go out for lunch in campus...eat together...

but he..

rejected me..

he say no..

he wanted to spend time at home

hes not hungry...

reasons n reasons....as always...

den wen he got angry coz i said i dun wana eat wen v had a slight argument...

he got mad n scolded me...

he made me cry...

den he said tings wich made me feel so hurt...

i juz duno wat to do..

he juz dun understand dat i dun love him at all..

all he knw is bout hw he feels...

dats all...

he has to knw dat i love him...

but wat can i do for dat??

after all..

all he nids to do is juz hav lunch wit me...

lunch n dinner..

dats wat im askin for..

not more not less..

but if he cant do dat for me..den wat m i suposed to do..

i cant shout at him..

all i can do is juz sit all by myself n cry..

i feel my life is juz a piece of shit...

a bf cant even spend time wit me for lunch n dinner....

n all i cud do is cry n feel so lonely..

wat m i supposed to do..??

who m i supposed to go for help other den my own bf who now dun wana spend time for me..

help is all i need...y.

VALENTINES DAY!!!

hahaha..

Valentines...

my best day...

well.. i had loads of friends who wished me...made me happy n advised me on tiz day...

im super happy...but im not done wiot my dearest 1 yet...its tomoro...!!!

hahaha

welll...

RAM: thanks for ur chocs...it was nice...although u din like it...but i loved it..u were juz tooo greedy n ate d worst taste at d 1st.. but i love ya k..no matter wat...

maya:thanks for chearin meup..u made me laugh till my stomach is achin

prabu:u advised me wen i was soooo upset...

navin:my god...thanks for bein wit me all d time i needed u...i will b there for u too wen u need me...all u nid to to is juz buzz me...

reinu:im stil waitin for my teddy...!!! u promised...

nithi:u!!! wished me like 3 times d..!!! thanks to u!!! u were teher for me aso wen i was sad...n u heard me cry dat day too...!!! sorry na...:)

veero: my mummy!!!!! u halp me a lot!!!! but till u fail in milo la...not kaw enough...!!!

i love u guys a lot!!!!!

HAPPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

miserable Life!!!

hw long m i gona stand wit tiz..

cryin..

n its for notin actually

y does my life has to b so miserable...

i din do nytin wrong....

but pple accuuse me...

so sad

so heartbroken

im juz sooo dissapointed

im always hugging...

n cryin on dat pillow...which MEANS A LOT..

but day by day...

i lose confidence...

i juz duo wat to do..

i tink i hav to cry my lungs out

SELFISH...OR WAT!!!!

people....people...people...

many many types of dem...

argh

sum ar nice..gud hearted..like to make every1 happy..gives a lot of attention..

but y are there people who like to ignore others...especially if d person is very caring towars dem..n had never ignored dem b4...??

i m so stupid at times...whereby..i tend to forget everytin wen he convinces me..

but den...i did not forget wat he did..

its all fresh in d mind..

im hurt wit him attitude..

y other pple he talks so closely while he is not even close to dem...

but me..

he ignores me like forever...

m i for him???

tiz question pops out in my mind all d time wen he does tiz...argh...

i duno wat to do..

i juz need attention frm all d pple i love...

but it seems d other way..